28 and starting out GREAT!

Yesterday was my 28th birthday. Woah! Where did the time go? I guess I'm not a kid anymore. I'm considered in my late 20's. What a year this has been, is, and will be. My 10 year high school reunion is coming up AND I'm having a baby! My family reunion is this week and we find out if this baby is a boy or girl in a few more days. I can't wait! Will totally be posting again soon so stay tuned!

Since John has been so busy with school this summer, we haven't had much time for fun. I desperately needed some fun! In the summer we like to host what we call 'sundeas on sunday' a few times each summer. It's basically an ice cream party. We get a tub or two of vanilla ice cream as well as bowls and spoons then we invite people and have them bring the toppings. We try to have 10-15 people and we usually get a nice variety of toppings. It's a lot of fun. Well we hadn't done it yet this summer and because my birthday happened to fall on Sunday, I told John that's all I wanted for my birthday! BUT this time we invite everyone we can! (he did get me a present too, a body pillow to sleep with because sleeping is getting more difficult...)

It was a BLAST! I got to see so many of my friends and a few that I hadn't seen in years. It was so fun and the time flew by much too fast. Sadly my parents were supposed to be there but they got car trouble on the way up and didn't make it in until today. BUT I still had a really fun time! I didn't get many pictures but here's a few,
Cade & Jessica

Juan & Rachel, Jake & Cody
Amber and Chrissy
Dave & Amber
Traci & Mark
Me and Brittany

Sarah & Mike

Ben, Jason & Angie and Kyle

Emily Leah Beau Bobby

Me and Emily

I LOVE MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Independance Day

I have ALWAYS loved the 4th of July. Being patriotic just comes naturally. I love celebrating a holiday that everyone else in the country celebrates with you! And talk about fireworks, how amazing and fun are fireworks? I could do or watch fireworks every month, maybe even every week and never get sick of them. I'm sure my husband gets annoyed with me every time there is an opportunity to see them because I MUST be present! I even get stressed when I think I am going to miss viewing them or even stress out that my location to view them isn't the most perfect spot to view them from. See, I am obsessed! Not just with the fireworks, with the whole holiday. I could literally go on and on about how I love this nation and how grateful I am to those who lived and died for it and those who continue to build and repair it, but I won't take more time then just that.

So this 4th we spent most of the day with the Lewis family. John's father went through quite an ordeal this time last year but he came through and is alive and just as well. We are so grateful that he's alive and here another year! What an even greater excuse to get together and celebrate! We always have a lot of food at any of John's family gatherings, so eat we did! Once it got dark enough we did just a few fireworks with the remaining kids, it was great fun. I'm convinced any holiday is better around children. They make everything so exciting. They kept saying, 'this is the best day ever', priceless! I can't wait to have my own little hyper-active freaking out party animal child!

Here's just a few captured moments,

What's new

Well I haven't posted much in a while because nothing really new has been going on... Well except for the fact that, I'M PREGNANT!!! Ha ha you thought this was going to be just another ordinary boring post. Well, it isn't! At least, I hope you aren't done reading now that you've read the good part. I've got more to say! First off I will give some info because I'm sure there are many questions speeding through your mind right now. I am 14 weeks (3 months) and I have the most amazing due date ever, 12/12/12! Don't think we could have planned that any better! And yep, we got pregnant right away. Waited 3 months after the miscarriage and sure enough, we didn't have to wait any longer than that! I didn't feel as sick this time as I did the first time. But I have been sick! Tired, irritable, nauseous, the symptoms were all there but not nearly as horrible as last time. I never threw up either, (although I came close many times). The peak was around 10 weeks. I was glad to be sick because I took it as a good sign but at the same time it sucked. It was a love/hate relationship. I don't feel much sickness at all anymore and I am loving that! I am starting to get a little uncomfortable in my clothes and will probably need some stretchy pants soon... yip-ee!

My ultrasound will be August 2nd and yes we want to know what it is! My family will be in town and some of them will get to go to the ultrasound with me. It will be so fun to have some family be part of the experience! Oh and you may be wondering what I'm going to do as far as work. Well, I plan to work right up until delivery time and I think afterwards I will go back part time, at least until John is done with school. (He gets done in April) It may take him some time to get a job and I think it might be nice to work like 2 days a week and bring in a little extra cash just in case. Also, I might like getting out of the house once in a while. I will not be managing the salon once I have the baby but I think I have a good replacement lined up so, everything seems to be working out!

I feel very blessed and so excited I can hardly stand it! It doesn't always feel real to me even though I've been to the doctor twice and have heard that amazing heartbeat sound twice. Everything is looking good and I am a little overwhelmed that it seems to be going kinda easy so far. Of coarse I've still got a ways to go and I'm sure it does get harder as time goes on. But hey, this is really such a blessing. I know that everything I went through before was meant to happen even if I don't understand all the reasons why. I feel more prepared and ready. I feel excited and happy. I just can't believe I've been given this opportunity and I love this little baby so much already! John is just as excited as I am and we so look forward to becoming parents!!!

So there ya have it! Probably the most exciting news I'll ever share!!! But please don't let that turn you off from coming back to visit and continue reading ok?

New Pics!

Spring

(I got these pics from a yahoo search engine)
Don't ya just love this time of year?

The sun is always shining and the birds are chirping and there is just enough cool crispness in the air to invigorate you!

It's warm enough and cool enough that you are just comfortable all the time. You don't even need a jacket, you can sport shorts or pants and just flip flops, short sleeves, long sleeves, endless possibilities!

You don't need heat or air conditioning. You can just keep the windows open and breathe in the fresh air.

I love it! Spring is just cute! Tons of beautiful blooming flowers. I wish it was like this all year round.
I guess I need to move to California huh?

Nerves

Ever since my miscarriage I've been afraid of the future. Afraid of going through something like that again. Afraid that we will never be able to have kids. Afraid that I will do something wrong and they will be gone. Afraid that nothing will work out.... I really have a big fear of getting pregnant again and losing it, again. It will cross my mind everyday because life is seriously so precious and could end at any time and we have very limited control. Life isn't fair and sorrow will always come. I can't shake the nerves... So is the trial of our faith...

When I'm feeling anxious I make myself put it aside because I can't think like that. It's not healthy and it won't do me any good. I've tried to distract myself with putting friends first. But this has been difficult too because it seems like everyone is going through pain. It's like all I ever hear is sad news. Family members who are so sick it's scary. Friends having marriage problems. People who have lost children. Many friends are having fertility challenges. I also have a friend my age going through chemo-therapy treatments for cancer. What is going on? Why is life this hard?

I want to go hide somewhere safe

....at least I'm not being chased by zombies

SPRING BREAK!!!

I guess it's about time for another blog post. I have been waiting for something interesting to say and I guess I finally do. No, it's not what you're thinking but, hopefully soon!

This week was Spring Break! John has this whole week off so I decided to take some time off too so we could spend what might be our last freedoms together. That sounds confusing. What I mean is this week was our last known chance to be able to do something wild and crazy before he gets busier with school or before we have kids. My original plan was to go on a cruise and maybe check out Harry Potter world in Florida, but sadly we once again cannot afford to do something that lavish. So, instead we decided to go to St. George and go skydiving and out to eat and stay at a hotel and all that but the more we thought about it, we realized all that stuff we wanted to do we could do at home. I was not thrilled to vacation at home, but I thought I'd give it a chance. I did like the sound of being able to sleep in my own bed and not be spending hours in the car or paying out at the gas pumps. So, here is how we spent our week...

Monday: A relaxing day off catching up on cleaning, errands, laundry, whatever. I did not get out of my pj's the whole day. Didn't even put on a bra! It felt good to be a bum for a day.

Tuesday: Had a little work out in the morning then out to lunch at Rubio's. Went to see John Carter, and it was actually a lot better than I thought. Go see it! Afterwards we got frozen yogurt then made a quick trip to Wal-Mart. Then I gave John a hair cut and he went to play basketball. I usually never go watch him because it's late and I usually get up early and go to work the next day. Since we didn't have to get up early at all, I went to watch him for a little while to take some videos of his skills. He always tells me he plays better when I am there. I like to think I am his good luck charm!

Wednesday: Went to Salt Lake and got to-die-for massages. Went out to eat at a place called The Copper Onion, so good! Checked in at The Anniversary Inn. Wasn't too impressed but still had a nice time until we tried to fall asleep. I guess that hotel isn't really one for sleeping... we heard people coming in and out and in and out of the back door (which our room was right next to) as well as the people upstairs 'building shelves' as John put it and cars driving by on the roads outside. At 12:30 John asks if I want to just go home. It'd been about an hour that we were trying to fall asleep. At first I refused because it's a lot of money and dang it, I like to get my money's worth! But after thinking it through I agreed. I realized it would be better to go home early and get some sleep and miss out of the lame breakfast rather than get hardly any sleep and eat a lame breakfast and just go home after that. So we checked out and got home around 1:30 am.

Thursday: Woke up just before 11 and got ready then went to breakfast at Village Inn then off to the Provo Temple. We originally planned to go to the Salt Lake temple after we checked out of the hotel because we have never been but since we came home early, we didn't want to drive all they way back up to Salt Lake just for that and come right back home. So, some other time. Later, John got new tires put on my car and my friend, Amber came over to watch our show, The Vampire Diaries.

Friday: Today. I decided not to take the whole week off because well hey, I am the sole provider right now and I really should not not work and spend money... So I am working tonight and tomorrow. John is going to study in the meantime and get whatever done he still needs to do before going back to school next week.

We had a nice relaxing week and I'm so glad we took this time to be together just he and I before adding more madness into the mix! Sorry I have no pictures... Oh I so do not want to go back to work today either. I never want to work again!! And I still want to go on a cruise someday but John says once he's making $100,000 a year we can do whatever we want. He is more patient than I am...