SPRING BREAK!!!

I guess it's about time for another blog post. I have been waiting for something interesting to say and I guess I finally do. No, it's not what you're thinking but, hopefully soon!

This week was Spring Break! John has this whole week off so I decided to take some time off too so we could spend what might be our last freedoms together. That sounds confusing. What I mean is this week was our last known chance to be able to do something wild and crazy before he gets busier with school or before we have kids. My original plan was to go on a cruise and maybe check out Harry Potter world in Florida, but sadly we once again cannot afford to do something that lavish. So, instead we decided to go to St. George and go skydiving and out to eat and stay at a hotel and all that but the more we thought about it, we realized all that stuff we wanted to do we could do at home. I was not thrilled to vacation at home, but I thought I'd give it a chance. I did like the sound of being able to sleep in my own bed and not be spending hours in the car or paying out at the gas pumps. So, here is how we spent our week...

Monday: A relaxing day off catching up on cleaning, errands, laundry, whatever. I did not get out of my pj's the whole day. Didn't even put on a bra! It felt good to be a bum for a day.

Tuesday: Had a little work out in the morning then out to lunch at Rubio's. Went to see John Carter, and it was actually a lot better than I thought. Go see it! Afterwards we got frozen yogurt then made a quick trip to Wal-Mart. Then I gave John a hair cut and he went to play basketball. I usually never go watch him because it's late and I usually get up early and go to work the next day. Since we didn't have to get up early at all, I went to watch him for a little while to take some videos of his skills. He always tells me he plays better when I am there. I like to think I am his good luck charm!

Wednesday: Went to Salt Lake and got to-die-for massages. Went out to eat at a place called The Copper Onion, so good! Checked in at The Anniversary Inn. Wasn't too impressed but still had a nice time until we tried to fall asleep. I guess that hotel isn't really one for sleeping... we heard people coming in and out and in and out of the back door (which our room was right next to) as well as the people upstairs 'building shelves' as John put it and cars driving by on the roads outside. At 12:30 John asks if I want to just go home. It'd been about an hour that we were trying to fall asleep. At first I refused because it's a lot of money and dang it, I like to get my money's worth! But after thinking it through I agreed. I realized it would be better to go home early and get some sleep and miss out of the lame breakfast rather than get hardly any sleep and eat a lame breakfast and just go home after that. So we checked out and got home around 1:30 am.

Thursday: Woke up just before 11 and got ready then went to breakfast at Village Inn then off to the Provo Temple. We originally planned to go to the Salt Lake temple after we checked out of the hotel because we have never been but since we came home early, we didn't want to drive all they way back up to Salt Lake just for that and come right back home. So, some other time. Later, John got new tires put on my car and my friend, Amber came over to watch our show, The Vampire Diaries.

Friday: Today. I decided not to take the whole week off because well hey, I am the sole provider right now and I really should not not work and spend money... So I am working tonight and tomorrow. John is going to study in the meantime and get whatever done he still needs to do before going back to school next week.

We had a nice relaxing week and I'm so glad we took this time to be together just he and I before adding more madness into the mix! Sorry I have no pictures... Oh I so do not want to go back to work today either. I never want to work again!! And I still want to go on a cruise someday but John says once he's making $100,000 a year we can do whatever we want. He is more patient than I am...

Oh what to do...

I'm not really sure what to say today but I just feel like writing. I used to write a lot and I thought I was getting pretty good at it but one day I just felt like I wasn't going to get any better so I stopped. I've done that with lots of things. Skateboarding, playing the guitar, drawing, making jewelry... all hobbies I used to have and sometimes pick up again but never like I used to. Now, when I have free time I sit in front of the TV and wonder when I let my life get so boring. When did I let myself get boring?

Do you ever feel like you got left in the past? That you're aging and acquiring more but your personality got left behind and you don't know where it went and you can't find a way to go back and get it? I often wonder why I feel like I'm not the same person I once was. I'm not as spontaneous as I used to be. I'm not as creative as I used to be. I'm not as much fun as I used to be. (I'm not as thin as I used to be) Is it just because as adults we just have too much going on that we forget to not care so much? Does life just constantly bring on more and more responsibilities? The more it brings on the more unsatisfied I seem to be. I can't even muster a pat on the back when I accomplish something as simple as following a new recipe and having it turn out good.

Sometimes I think I just have too much I want to be doing and not enough time to do it. Then sometimes I think life is soooo long and when is it going to get really good? Then I have to smack myself and count my blessinsg because life IS good! I think I just forgot how to enjoy it.

There it is, that's got to be it right? Now, I am sitting here thinking about all my blessings and feeling really guilty that I'm even writing this stuff. My blog is becoming a journal and I never wanted it to be that way. I wanted it to be full of fun and hilarious stories and have cool layouts and neato pictures and interesting things that people want to read... oy, nothing is good enough for me. Ok, officially never going to post this. Ah, maybe I will. But please keep in mind that I'm just writing my thoughts, not really thinking them through. Don't judge me for being honest. It's what the people want! I am a people pleaser!

...Or I am just crazy.

It's Been A Month

My miscarriage was about 1 month ago. Things are better although I still have some hard days. Sadly, it's hard to be around other pregnant women. I find myself thinking that they need to be happier (even though I'm sure they are happy). It also seems like there are just a million of them too. Everywhere I look there is a pregnant woman! But I have to remind myself that I'm in Provo, Utah and that's just how things work here. I know my time will come! I am doing everything I can think of to prepare for the baby-future. So far, so good.

John has started school again and also so far, so good. He will be done April 2013. We are counting down the days let me tell you! We are grateful that we will (hopefully) have a baby of only a few months old by that time rather than an almost 1 year old. John always says things don't go according to plan but this time, they really have to! We already went through enough surprises that we need some calm.

I have a new calling at church, I'm in the primary teaching the 8 year-olds. It's only been once but hey, so far, so good! Well I'm just keeping busy otherwise and finding and reminding myself of things that make me happy. Thankfully, there are a lot!!!

Christmas in Arizona 2011

I've got lots I want to blog about today but will probably not get around to it all. So maybe there will be more posts than usual in the next week or so!

Today I want to post about Christmas. John and I drove down to Taylor, Arizona where my parents live. It's a tiny town in northern Arizona not next to anything. Almost the whole family was there. Only my sister, Cody and her husband, Jake were not able to make it. They live in South Carolina. My oldest sister, Bronmin flew in from Texas with her husband, Kirk and their daughter, Landon. My oldest brother Aaron drove up from Nevada with his family. His wife, Janet and their 5 children, Ben, Luke, Zack, Simon, and baby Roma. My other brother Brett and his wife and children KT, Sebastion, and Oliver drove in from California. I mention all this so that anyone who doesn't know my family will understand how spread out we are and how difficult it can be to get together and how much we love seeing each other!

We all got there on Christmas Eve in the evening and we stayed up late, well, pretty much every night. We opened presents, went to church, ate lots of food that we couldn't get enough of, played lots of Wii, rode horses, celebrated Aaron's 35th birthday, saw a mini train town, toured a rock museum, and just partied it up! I so needed time with my family and was so sad when we had to leave, I actually cried... It sucks that we don't see each other more than once or twice a year. Someday we'll all be millionaires and get to vacation every month and visit whenever and wherever we want!!!

Anyway, here are lots of pictures!