Sunday, January 4, 2015

Waiting for.....?

Well, I turned down the jetBlue job.  After a few good talks with my husband and some praying, I just feel like it was going to be too much for me and my family right now.  I'm relieved in a lot of ways but I also feel like saying that it sucks.  I can't seem to shake the feeling that something is missing.  That there is something I am supposed to be doing and I still can't figure out what that is.  Why am I having such a hard time not feeling satisfied and instead just wanting more?  I want to work... I want to see my family.... I want a bigger house... a bigger car.... another kid...  But these things are nothing I can have right now.  I hate the feeling of waiting to be happy.

I am mostly happy.  I have millions of things to be happy about and be grateful for.  Life is pretty good.  But life is also pretty hard.  No matter what, everyone experiences pain.  Pain is a lesson, and what lesson is ever not painful?  *sighs*  The hardest part is not knowing why, or for how long, or what you're supposed to do next!

At any rate, I've decided I need to sell myself.  That sounds bad... what I mean is; I love to do hair!  Even though my circumstance and situation are not exactly ideal... I can still do it!  So, I am going to try to market myself.  If you or anyone you know are interested in getting their hair done from me, please check me out at https://www.facebook.com/jades.hairspot and let's set something up!

In other thoughts, I got a new cell phone for Christmas and I am obsessed with taking pictures and videos of my handsome little boy.  Here are some of my favorites,