Some things as of late...

First off, thanks for the comments and words of inspiration from my last post. It was much needed and seemed well recepted. I'm encouraged and will try to find more meaningful things to say!

So I just thought I'd post some pictures of happenings lately. The first is to state something John has done with his birthday money. He bought 2 suits (which were greatly needed). I only have a picture of 1 however. His other suit is a light grey almost cream color. It's pretty awesome. He didn't like posing for me but here he is anyway.
Handsome guy!

So I have cats and they are so fun. They love to do random things like climb up our drapes and hang out on the curtain rod...

Something else we're really into is cooking. Well it comes and it goes. It mostly comes when John watches a lot of Food Network and wants to create meals he sees. Ever watch Good Eats with Alton Brown? Oh yeah!!! If it looks good to me then we both get inspired! So, we did this pretty much... minus the home made tortillas and use of tequila...


Ours:

For some reason I can't remember we decided to also do some sweet pulled pork tacos. We got that recipe from a blog who copied it from Costa Vida's recipe (or close to it). It was a yummy food night! The pulled pork looked so delicious, I had to take a picture of it,


The second time we made the pork we tried it with nachos and tostadas. Also very very yummy!!! BUT this time just yesterday I told John I wanted to try the pork in enchiladas. I think he was a little hesitant but I just knew I could do it. My mom made Mexican food A LOT and although she didn't force me to learn from her, I think I caught on to a thing or two. Once the pork was done slow cooking, I made the enchiladas. They had the sweet pork, lots of cheese, a few black beans inside and on top we did a drop of sour cream and some black olives, as well as some rice and beans on the side to give it that restaurant look (even with the melted cheese on the frijoles). John was impressed and surprised and complimented me by saying it was his favorite thing I've ever made and also the best thing I've ever made. I was a little surprised too! I took a few bites before realizing I should take a picture but here is that picture,


That's it for now, more to come another time probably soon!

Life

Hello People Who Read My Blog,
It has been a while. Now that all the busy stuff is over I've been doing a whole lot of nothing. It's been great! But uneventful... so I don't have much to say. I've never been one to say much on the blog anyway. I don't typically like to use it as a journal. I don't think anyone is that interested in me and frankly I don't know if I want them to be. However, I've been thinking of giving it a try. I might regret this but oh well I only have 8 followers and only like 1 of them ever comments so... I know not many people will really read this.

Life has been pretty good. For the most part. Some things have been hard. My biggest challenge is not letting myself compare myself to other people. Maybe it's just living in Utah where everyone seems really put together. I find myself envying a lot of people. I hate that I do that and I know my husband hates it too. I am a happy person and I love and appreciate a lot of what I have. I know I am fortunate. Life just seems unfair sometimes. I feel pretty happy with how things are right now but I can't help but feel that I won't be totally happy until this or that happens.

Maybe I am selfish, I don't know. But I just feel stuck. I've been at my job not advancing for over the last 3 years.... I have no other skills or hobbies because they are expensive... I can't finish school because all the money I make goes to my husband's education right now.... We can't start a family until the husband works full time and I don't have to.... I hardly ever get to see my family.... I can't lose the extra weight I've put on since getting married.... I can't have my own washer and dryer inside my house unless we move but we can't move because we have a mortgage that's losing money.... I don't have a local best friend.... I can't find a way to get my cats from not being afraid of me.... and I have a ton of grey hair and I'm only 27. Ok so not all these things are bad. At least I have a job, at least my husband is doing what he loves, at least I have food to eat, at least I have a good family that I want to see, at least I can do more than one load of laundry at a time, at least I have a few good friends and at least I can color my hair easily and for cheap! I get it. So why am I still so down? Because I compare myself to the younger, thinner, more successful people around me with beautiful homes and families. I feel like they judge me. A friend once told me that I have to understand that those people have challenges too. Easier said then done right? Do these feelings ever go away?

I know the answers. I just don't want them I guess. But like I said, I am positive and I am happy. I try not to think too much about what I want because then I get discouraged. I don't know if this post was worth it but maybe someone will tell me they've been there and life does get better!